So here I am, weighing the pros and cons of telling you what I feel. Apparently, there are a whole lot more pros than the cons, BUT… the “I might lose him” cons is the one holding me back. I cannot lose someone like you. You are too important.
I know you made it clear that were friends, but how the hell should I tell myself not to fall in love. Honestly, you made it really difficult for me not to fall. You do not know how hard I prayed to God not to let me fall for you, alam ko naman kasi na walang mangyayari sakin. Alam ko naman din kasi na masasaktan lang ako. Eh, nangyari na ang hindi inaasahan. Hindi ko din naman ginusto pero nangyari. I don’t know how to fix this, I don’t know if I can still fix this, and I’m not sure if there is something left to fix.
I didn’t want to tell you but I have to be honest with myself. I feel my brain screaming at me telling me to tell you what I feel. I don’t like being cheesy, I hate it actually, after all that happened to me before, I never want to wear my heart on my sleeve anymore. After all that happened, I barely tell the people what I really feel.
Hindi ko na kasi talaga kayang itago.
I am sorry if I’m screwing things up… But… You have to forgive me… I didn’t mean for this to happen. I’m not sorry for feeling it but I’m sorry because it’ll make things complicated. I’ve fallen in love with you and I don’t know how to undo it, actually, I’m not sure if I want to undo it.
